End

Year 2012 is coming to an end. What is done is done.
Look what's ahead. But sometimes, you have to take a little step back, pause, look behind to leap further. To learn what you have done wrong or right and not to repeat the same old mistakes you did, and to strive hard again for achievements.

remember..

remember the times when you cried

remember the mistakes you made

remember the times where you were unhappy

remember.. Stop..

remember the good times

remember the laughter

in the end.. Remember that you have lived

The Science of Happiness

3 gratitude
journal
exercise
meditation
random act of kindness

One way to success. Keep asking yourself what, how and why. And another way around.

TV is fake

Ever wondered why in the tv you have never come across with "pardon me, sorry, come again, huh, talk louder I cannot hear you etc." but in real life this occur so much, so much that your friends actually got mad and said nothing bitch. hmmmm...

The Riddle of Life

What is Life without fun? What is Life without challenges? What is Life if you cannot enjoy what you enjoy doing the most? Ultimately, what is Life without you knowing what Life is and where it is leading u to?

So what am I doing with my Life again? WHATTHEFUCK
Can somebody help me out and tell me what Life is jesusfuckingchrist.
I'm currently persuing love and doing what I hate doing the most with a lil bit of motivation every day; studying bitches studying. It is so cliche. I hate it when everyone can study and you're doing the goddamn same thing.fuck u.

On the whole new topic here. People are judgmental. This is so normal. I don't see it as a good thing, I don't see it as a bad thing as well. People judge people. It is a good thing because if you are judging people, probably first thing you will notice is about the cons. (Who the fuck gives you credits when you're good at something, but not the best.) Back to business, when I judge, of course it motivates, directs and refrain me from being like the other person that I'm judging because I don't wanna be like him/her.
While it is a bad thing only because judging is a bad thing. That's all.
All I wanna say is, we should judge because it will improve the quality of oneself. It is the matter of opinion like this is my opinion and I am opened to judgements. I judge but I don't say out loud. So keep it to yourself when you judge. And having prejudice is bad but who cares.

On Cloud Nine

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I am so glad u initiate omg I love u <3

The Final Verdict

No, I will not let go.
I will wait for the end of Semester 2.

I'll not text her for now other than goodnight to avoid being friendzoned.

I am seriously in love witchu fluffy! I want you to be a part of my life.

It's all about you

Hmm I won't let go. I have invested too much on you. You do not know what you will miss if you friendzone me. I've done so much but I'll will do more in the time to come. I will prove myself. Prove my actions are louder than words. I am ready to sacrifice for you. You are really that special to me. Please come into part of my life. Allow me.

Give me more time. I will serenade my love to you <3

I am a murderer

I killed you, but I buried myself :C

Go with the Flow

aimless, helpless, clueless

Greatest Regret

I was such a douche.
If I've a wish, I would wish for u to be okay.
I do not hope for you to forgive me.
I did not know what I did that for.
Sorry obviously wouldn't do but it's all I can do for now.
I am seriously sorry destroying your life.
You are seriously the nicest person I've met.
You are a true, genuine, funny, friendly and all.
Now that there's a distance between us, I really miss the old times.
All I can say is that I seriously don't want to lose you, friend.
I wouldn't say sorry cause I've already said it a thousand times.
I know it signifies nothing.
That little childish action of mine; pulling the chair away from you is the greatest regret of my life.
It broke your fragile bone. It broke you. It broke us as well.
Eventhough you are just as natural(cheerful) as you are, talking to me and acting all perfectly fine, I feel I should fuck off myself. I should distant myself from you and just go away, just leave. That would do you a favour? I will do that if you want me to
#fuckmefordoingthatfuckmefuckmefuckmefuckyourself

Waiting Outside the Line

Give me the green light and I will dash with full thrust.
#officiallymissingyou

Frust

I hope one day lie kills you.

Seriously.

One more step

Hope she feels me. One step closer.
Not going to miss this golden opportunity.
Make it count!

First sight

Will it be a my first achievement or just another dream?
I don't know. Eventhough I just got to know you, you are that angel.
LOVEATFIRSTSIGHT*
canigoafteryou?canyoubetheone?

Can u feel what i feel?

It's the feeling that sparks up excitement and thrill with a little dash of humor alongside comes the real deal; the intangible, the invisible, the un-microscopic-able atmosphere of adoration that fill layers of layers of layers of thin noticeable rainbow, filling my heart gradually with heart-shaped butterflies; I am in the la-la land of love.

AMBIGUITIES

I AM STARTING TO MISS HER ALREADY <3

Notion of the Ocean

I'd left behind ugly and disgusting features of me in the past.
Neither can I alter nor reverse of what my friends think of me.
Perspectives.

Guilt

What was I thinking? Think twice before you do shit please next time. This is one lesson.

All I hope for is that she is fine and her backbone is okay. Fucking guilty right now. AHhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Read all her updates on twitter haha she's so nice she doesn't hold grudges. I don't expect her to forgive me. I want to make it up to her someday and someday I shall.
On the bright side, I think it's gonna be one funny ass tale we can all remember in the future, that we once were do the stupidest things and had good laugh together when we reminisce the past.

Hindered

To grow. To learn. To cry. To decide. To be forced. To comply. To regret. To move on. To carry on. To stop pondering. To repent. To be infuriated. To be helpless.

To appreciate. To be grateful. To smile. To smirk. To help.

To live. To die. LIVE TO DIE

Pleasant, just that heh

1st week of Sem 2 was over and I think I didn't study at all.
Hung out with my bros again. Went to the Burger Lab. Awesome shit <3
Had a sleepover at Daryl's. We pretty much talked about happenings, about girls specifically. Feelings speak for ourselves.
Idk but I have low self-esteem when I am around with people who are smart. My mind starts to fuck shit up and I become inarticulate and somehow don't make sense.

Bird............... is not the word

Had a terrific holiday. With 3 days spent in Singapore with my Sis and Sing Hong.
Thanks for being awesome people.
1 more day to the start of Sem2. Gotta work hard. Put my head in the game. Aim for higher CGPA. You can do it go go.

勇气

我不敢踏出那步。我不要有那个尴尬的日子过。我还是坚持这样下去好点

About Traits & Qualities

Acknowledging the fact that no human is perfect, hence the flaws. These are what I look for.

Be herself. Fake is bad, very bad. Just stay authentic, stay as original as possible.

Smart. Have views of her own. At times, she has to lead me.
She never makes the first move. I initiate and you can choose.

Be sexy, without being trampy. Don't dress like a pros waiting to be paid.

Be docile. Don't be a lil bitch and overly-sensitive that's all.

Open-mindedness. Open to me and myself only.

Bilinguality. Can speak Mandirin and English.

Togetherness. Go in pair with me and dare to try new things.

Musical. Loves music.
Sporty. Loves sports and adventures.

Other common ones being; faithful, caring, extrovert, and preferably physically attractive of course :D

Time doesn't fly, it skips

I did not do my best but it was what I could at this time. Final, brace yourself.
One day left.
*If you fail to plan, then you plan to fail

Eyes on the Price

What did I tell you? Focus son, focus.
Can you not appear in my life? You are distracting me, away, away from everything.
I should have known :C
It's too late :C
The only thing I can do for now is to stay away, like far far away.
FMFLthisiskillingmegodpleasehelpIneedguidancefromyouenlightenmehelpmeseeaheadpleaseibegyou

Suppose?

What is it about you that is bothering me? I hate this shit.

I couldn't go on any longer like this.

My Seven Deadly Sins

Wrath; (anger)
I will fuck you up, trust me I will fucking fuck your fuckhole, mosquitoes. GET A LIFE LEI LOU MOU
Greed; (tam sim)
Actually, I'm not. All I want is just money. To buy Audi, Land Rovers, Zara, LV, Mansion, G6, a decent handphone, good food, chicks and more chicks :P
Sloth; (lazy)
Sometimes I can be too lazy to open my eyes, they are closed all-day.
Pride; (hidung tinggi)
My nose is quite pointy. *smirking*
Lust; (hamsap)
No, I'm not. It's weird not to look back when they stare at you. I just look back. Nope I'm not.
Envy; (jealousy)
I wish I could turn real green like the Hulk to smash all the sweet-assed cars on the road.
Gluttony; (tam jiak)
To resist eating, I always munch.

Perseveran.... fail

Now wtf I could not go on like this anymore. Final's 2 weeks away. I guess I'm numb to exams. I used to feel the semangat, the feel the the heat of exams but now it's like okok exam so what??!!
Sien I am alone in this house. I thought I love being alone but come to think of it, it's quite creepy at night lol. Enho and his bro went to penang and won't be coming back this week. I just wana talk. It's been a while since I last saw my two bros. Bromance were furthering apart. After this sem gotta hang out with them more often and do the sohai things lmao
There's this girl. Damn. I just cannot get over her.
Fuckthisshitthisisnotthetimefocuschunwhatdoyouthinkyouaredoing.
AHHHH GODDAMN LIFE. I WISH U COULD TURN INTO A HUMAN AND I"LL BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF YOU MOTHERFUCKER

Life :D

First thing first, final is coming omgawdd. Okayyyy, my result wasn't really satisfying. My grades were in that of  mediocrity. Chances are I work harder now or retake. It's now or never. Now fuck that. IDONOTWANTTORETAKE. Think of the, the embarrassment, the time wasted when you could go on but you have to spend another fucking sem watching and staring at the same teacher repeating what you had done, the money needed to resit, what people think about me and most of all, most of all is the feeling of regretfulness starts to flood in which you could not do anything about it but to feel what you should have done last time. FUCKTHAT. It's all about commitment. It's all about Newton's third law of motion; for every action, there's an equal action and opposite reaction.

Now, my motion is to sit down, chill, okay maybe not, nervous. Okay maybe you will calm with music, okay on the music. Then study. As simple as that. Equal and opposite reaction is you reap what you sow or with luck you improve better :D

Bottom line is STUDY HARD AND SMART CHUN.

Money Matters Most

ARRRGHH feels so sad to be broke. People say "Money is the root of all evil". Nah don't think so, I say "Money is the root of all happiness". With money, you can practically do things without boundaries. Now without money you cannot do shit. You can't even be sad because sad will make you cry and then you will need tissue but you don't have tissues because you don't have money to buy. See how I relate there? I learnt Critical Thinking man. I know it wasn't critical at all but in some sense it's true, you have to agree with me man. How is that evil son of all bitchesss??

I have no idea where has my money gone to. Monthly allowance RM200. Now, RM50. WHATTT!!?? It was only in 2 days. dude wtf. How am I possibly gonna spend the rest of the week? eat grass meh diu?

Conclusively, MONEY MATTERS MOST. *idunwanaeatgrass

Don't be a lil bitch

Stop touching me and acting like a lil bitch! You know it yourself you're not oblivious. Stop pretending. Everything about you is a bitch. If you ain't helping yourself, you will forever be a bitch. I wouldn't post about any bitch I don't like, it's just that you are a fucking bitch. Change or stay away for fuck's sake. I don't know if your mum was responsible for this but you should just be a normal being and that's okay. Ordinary is okay. I'm not your anyone, fuckoff.

oh how i wish...........

Mum will 'wake up', I studied hard in the past, I could be taller (being short it's like being look down upon, 175cm and above will adequately do for me :C), I have more money (to buy a new comp, new phone, new guitar, new apparels, new new), I am more socially eloquent and voice out more often not being pointless and shutting the fuck up everytime), I am not paranoid and doublechecking on the closed water taps or switches before going out but not checking for the maths exam paper that I used to sit which I had so so much confident on being it right but were wrong, I did not signed up for INTI (I couldn't get the refund :C), I have a beautiful girlfriend(actually I wanted to type hot), I have more cliques, I could do things more efficiently to be productive and not staying late at night, I could get over things that I have repented and never to think about them again, I am a bird or anything that could soar high with pride observing everything from the sky, I have a thousand wish right now and wish for everything that I wanted to have and the last one being having a thousand more wishes.

*Note that the last one is the utmost essential